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04 March 2011

Drifting...

 It's been a really rough week- had the flu- was in the hospital for two days-  missed exams- had to cancel my spring break trip home today- got my confidence shaken in a major way- lonely- need a break-  This is the song that played on my iPod this morning- The beginning of this song is exactly the way I feel right now-  like my heart is tearing in such a loud way---the whole world can hear it-- free falling off a building--- no net waiting--- the falling never stops--

Sunday is my mom's 60th birthday- my coming home was supposed to be her birthday surprise- my sister is announcing the sex of her baby- I'm supposed to be making a baby quilt with my sister for my new niece/nephew- I'm supposed to be spending pre-baby time with my sister because the next time I'm home--- there will be a new addition to the family---I'm supposed to be getting lots of hugs, gaining weight on Cook Out, Krispy Kreme, and What a Burger--- And yet-- here I am-- bent over books, trying to schedule make up exams--- and wondering if it's worth it---  

I'm mentally tired-- I'm emotionally exhausted-- and I can't stop crying (and I don't cry!!)


"Drifting"
(by Bebo Norman)

Sometimes when I'm all alone
I don't know if I can
Take another breath
Some say home is where the heart is
Tell me where my home is
'Cause I am scared to death

Falling from the rooftop
Crashing like a raindrop
Can you make my heart stop
Shaking like a leaf
Standing at the floodgate
Steady as an earthquake
Can you hear my heart break
Tearing at the seams

I am drifting in the deep end

Holding on to your hand
Is all that saves me now
Life can treat you like a beggar
You hold me together
But I don't know how

Falling from the rooftop
Crashing like a raindrop
Can you make my heart stop
Shaking like a leaf
Standing at the floodgate
Steady as an earthquake
Can you hear my heart break
Tearing at the streams

Some say home is where the heart is
And my heart is in your hands
You are all I need

Rising from the ashes
Lifting from the madness
Now you see my heart is
Deep enough to dream
Heal me from the deathblow
Lead and I will follow
Now you feel my heart glow
Mending at the seams

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